by J Watson@221B Thu Jul 26, 2012 9:21 am
John sat for a while, staring in to space. Thoughts began to form. How was Sherlock? He had texted him right before he had seen Moriarty that he was coming home. Was he waiting for him still? Or... did he even realise that he was gone? Was he just talking on and on and on to an empty flat? John hated himself for thinking those thoughts, but he couldn't help it! John knew that it was completely possibly Sherlock didn't notice he was gone, but... John hoped he hadn't.
John felt something wet slide down his face. A single tear. John blinked and lowered his head, also noticing that while he was lost in thought, the lights had gone out. No light could be seen. The room had no windows, and the door was sealed and behind him.
John had never liked the dark. Especially after the war. Some nights, the medical unit he was in would have to sit behind a brick wall, in complete darkness, while bombs and shrapnel were dropped from above. They had to sit and listen.to.people.die. They weren't allowed to help, for fear that the five of them still left might die.
John felt himself quivering. Memories of the war flooded his brain and overwhelmed him. John cried out once, and then bit his tongue to stop himself from making any other noises. More tears began to flow freely, and John had no way to stop them.
"Stop. Please. Stop." John whispered thickly.